Tuesday, September 19, 2006

The Pope's Remarks

At first, I didn't think the reactions on the Pope's speech would be this bad. But well, I was wrong. One quote from a person living several centuries ago, not even your own words, and now you're compared to Mussolini and Hitler? Cool. It's easy to have the reputation of a mass genocider at this age.

What is more surprising (or perhaps not), was the reaction from Iran, Somalia, and Al-Qaeda spokesman in Iraq. The heavily violence-laden comments were exactly what the Pope was talking about. Violence and Religion are not compatible with each other. While I know that Islam is a peaceful religion, and some Moslems are appalled at these comments too, I cannot help but think about the effects of these kinds of response. Responding with violent threats and demonstration, bombing churches and burning statues are only making the situation worse. Islam is not a violent religion, if so, who are these people, who practice violence in the name of Islam? Violence is only going to make Islam as a whole to be misunderstood even more, and the western media is not helping at all.

Perhaps it's about time to start reading the pope's speech as it was intended, and not only the one quoted part.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Getting Old

Well, today is my 22nd birthday. Rather than rejoicing, I got the sinking feeling that I am indeed getting older. It would be nice if I could just stay forever 21, but well, that's not how the world works. We all grew up someday, whether we want it or not. I somewhat understood how Peter Pan felt when he decided to stay in the Neverland. The world where he need not get old. But even Peter Pan grew older, not by age, but by personality. In the many versions of his story, he confronts Hook for the final time, showing a sense of adulthood in his responsibility on the fates of his friends. That flash of responsibility alone marks him as being more adult than his playful self.

Well, enough of that. It's already time to leave my Neverland. Speaking of the past, on this day, I recieved two very noticeable congratulations among those that I got today. One was from my first real crush. She wrote only two words, perhaps more out of necessity than true care, but it was enough for me. Perhaps she didn't want to leave a hole for me to get in, fearing that we'll both hurt each other again. Then again, perhaps there was really nothing left to say between us. Funny how love could change two best friends into almost total strangers. We only exchange greetings, perhaps out of necessity. Every conversation was guarded in fear of opening old wounds. Does it hurt? Excruciatingly yes, and even as time goes by, the wound never closes completely. But well, I've learned to accept it.

The other was in the form of spoken words, from another woman that I've had some past with. It's not the words that shocked me, but her teary eyes as she said that. She must've had some fight with her boyfriend before, but when I asked, she just shrugged it off as nothing. Typical of her. I mean, how could tehre be nothing when she was crying? For god's sake, she's a strong woman, though very emotional at times, how could there be nothing? The sight of her teary eyes almost broke my self-control. We're just friends now, and her boyfriend is my friend too. Yet I can't help but reminisce on what could have been. I guess I still care about her, a lot.

Me and my life... Well, perhaps this year would bring better luck. Who knows?

Friday, August 04, 2006

Random Scribblings

Appeared once, and then it's gone
Where there was, now there's none
Uninvited, unintended
Lost to the dark reality

Once I had, now I don't
A gift it was, I see not
Unwished for, unasked for
But never a bad thing

Was it ever real?
Illusion never was
Dreams never was
A fleeting blaze of hope

What is right?
What is wrong?
All lost in shades of grey
Gone like the breeze of spring

Dead, left by the life
Cold, forgotten by the sun
Lost my touch, lost my voice
Trapped in the middle of nowhere


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Just some random scribblings, nothing to get serious at...

Monday, July 24, 2006

Time's Running Out

And July's nearing its end. I have to do my final assignment at an increased pace if I still wanted to graduate on March. Need more motivation, but it's getting harder and harder to find at these moments. Perhaps I need a "left hand" for motivation. Not easy being "one-handed".

Thursday, July 06, 2006

God Knows

Just finished watching "Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuutsu". Great piece of work by Kyoto Animation there. Haruhi is very loveable, and Kyon's horrified expressions and his monologues are really funny ^^;

Currently addicted to the song "God Knows", SHnY epi 12's insert song.

Monday, May 08, 2006

Presence

It's been more than one month since my last post. I don't know what iv'e been doing these last weeks. I've been busy, or at least busying myself, with trivial things. I don't know. Just can't get my priorities staright. I know i should start focusing on the important things, but knowing and being able to do it are xompletely different things altogether. That has always been my problem. I know lots of things, I know what i should do, but summoning enough willpower to do it is, most of the time, something that i can't do.

And well, this last month seemed to just breeze past me like so many other months in my life. I don't know, sometimes i just feel like i'm just wasting my time. Sometimes it's just like whatever i'm doing is insignificant. And I feel like i've lost one friend these last months. I don't know, she just drifted away, and I didn't even try hard enough to hold her back. Feh, like i even have the right to do that. I don't know, was it fear? Fear of starting yet another grave mistake like the year back, or even the one before that?

I just don't know. Too many thoughts. Too many jumbled mess in my head, and too many things to do. Then why am I writing this? Ah, me and myself. Poking at other's troubles, pretending to care, yet keeping my distance so that i won't get splashed by the murky problems. Perhaps juist a way to keep my mind off my own troubles. As my friend once said. I deal with other's problems, but not mine. And it makes things worse by each day.

Really, i knew that as fact.

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Lots of Work

Currently writing a proposal for my final assignment. I told myself to have it done by weekend, and to start presenting it on april. At the very least, i need to have half of my final assignment done by the end of this semester. Work, work, work!

At the very least, with this work in front of me, I can finally start getting my life in order. And with my mind preoccupied, I have little time to dwell on this... feeling. I don't know, i guess i'm just a little lonely. Well, my own fault for keeping my distance to nearly every person in my life. Stupid hedgehog...

And Thannie finally stops boycotting my works. I don't know what's wrong with him. I don't even do a thing, and he just boots like there was never anythign wrong. What a fickle computer. I guess it takes on my personality :D

Thursday, March 09, 2006

Headache

Got an annoying headache early this morning. Maybe it's just my body protesting for the too-early wake up call. Anyway, I should really start getting my life in order. Lately, I've been living in a far too chaotic pace and it's proving to be hazardous for me, physically and mentally.

And now, of all times, my beloved Thannie (yes, that's my comp) decided to die out on me. I hope that it's just temporary, like always. I need him for my projects. Oh, and i forgot to put this on my last pos. It's the darker side of the johari window. Feel free to fill it.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Worries

I finally finished my assignment for today, but then someone finally reminded me taht i still got lots of stories to write -_-. I suppose it's already time that i started writing again.

Lately, my worrywart side's been popping out too often, but i suppose it's just natural. I am on my final year after all... I guess I'm just unsure about what I'll do once I finished here.

It's just like I've been on a train all this time, with railways to guide the way. And now that the train's nearing the final station, I'm dreading the fact that there are no more predefined paths to follow.

*sigh* oh well, this is just not like me at all... I guess it's time to go out and play for a while.

anyway, for those who know me, feel free to fill this. Yes, that is me. The nick "Zaku" was already in use.

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Idling Away

Lazy, lazy, lazy... That's what i keep telling myself. With all those works ahead of you, and you're still idling away here? Ah well, me and my lazy self. I have several stories to be replied, my own personal project to do, and my final assignment on top of all that. *sigh*

Well, at least i'm compiling enough data for my assignment proposal (God bless Wiki). As for the stories... Rave would probably kill me if i didn't write for another month. But hell, what can i do... It's not like i don't want to write. It's just that I never got the right mood. Call me moody if you want. I'd take that as a compliment.

Opening

Hm, so finally I started blogging again. This is a new site, since i forgot the password to my old site (Heck, i even forgot my old user name) . So, without furher ado, I present you... Teacups and Scribbles ver.1.02 ^^;

Oh, for those who doesn't know me.. I'm just an ordinary person looking for my place in life. This blogging activity is done only to put my scribblings to someplace where people can actually read it.